too tired of it all

today is a thursday and it’s been a heavy day overall. felt heavy as i woke up.. couldn;t get up from bed at my usual time.. and when i finally got up it took some more time to do the usual stuff… and then at the office, was confronted with unexpected work that got muddled up with old issues… i had to settle myself first in order to put things in perspective.. as in plan in my head how to go about doing what i ought to do.. for if i had not done it i would have done or accomplished anything…

just how bad it is… is really bad.. i just felt it… so bad i really wanted out now…if its possible… how can i have lasted this long? sure there are some perks that goes with this job… but the feeling of doing the same things over and over again and to what effect? do these things that i do ever contribute to the delivery of this service that my agency ought to deliver? maybe it does, yes it dooes but time is such an issue.. TIME IS SUCH  A BIG ISSUE… oh no… no .. no.. no…

i want out… and i want out now….

Hi! Ethel here….

Hi, my name in Ethel Lagustan-Moreno. I am a 39-year old married, full-time government employee. I’m taking up PTC hoping to qualify and to pass the LET soon! Before PTC, I also took up Diploma in Language and Literacy Education (DLLE) from UPOU. Distance/online education is the best option for someone like me who wishes to escape boredom from the routine of gov’t employment as well as to face (and add more) challenges into an already challenging worlds of marriage and motherhood.

Some years ago, I got employed as a HS English teacher in a small private school here in my home province, Marinduque. Having tasted the teaching challenge for a brief period, it got me really challenged that despite having transferred to government service, I decided to further my knowledge of teaching. Moreover, I enjoy the benefits of online learning as I do not need to travel, but instead I am safe in the comforts of my own home, and away from the risks of sea and land-travels (not to mention the expense and effort such travel entails).

I am looking forward to the day when I am more equipped to face the teaching challenges again. My immediate goal, of course is to accomplish all the required tasks for these courses under PTC and to be able to take the LET. But as I have mentioned, marriage, motherhood, filial responsibilities and work are definitely there posing big time-eaters and distractions against making these goals. Nevertheless, I still hope to make it, despite the odds. Just like what the inspiring message above, I want to explore how good I can be.